It’s 3am and I’m wide awake per usual. I blink my eyes to adjust to the darkness in my room, sit up in bed and slide to the edge of my twin sized mattress. Standing up I’m careful not to step on Theodore, my 9 year old Bichon Pekingese mix. I can hear him stretching ready to follow me wherever my sleep deprived body take us. The kitchen it is. I pull out a stool grab an apple, shine it on my shirt and take a bite. My mind doesn’t need time to gear up it’s already in full on gear grinder mode. I’m hoping it settles down soon as I’d like to get a few hours of sleep before work later on today. I finish my apple and toss the core on my way back to my room. Tucked back under my weighted blanket with the fan on its highest setting I close my eyes while a haunting melody develops in my head. Of course my brain would want to write a song right now. Let it have been a Saturday evening, with nothing to do and I’d have not even an ounce of creative voltage. I play along, and let it take me away. The melody a chorus of frantic strings plucking out a staccato rhythm over a plush layer of synthesized chords. 808 drops timed with the deadly precision of a heat seaking missile punctuate the conversation between the high ends. A voice carries over it all weaving in and out of the highs and lows in a language that I’ve either never heard before or doesn’t exist. Either way it’s beautiful, a serene soundscape to compliment my sleepless state. I grab my phone and open my tune sketch app and perfectly on cue the music stops. There’s no use trying to remember that song, when it’s gone it’s gone. It’s always been this way. So I check my alarms and pull the blanket up over my head and down across my eyes resembling a low hanging everyday hoodie. The faint traces of the tune echo somewhere unreachable outside my mental canvas, I close my eyes and imagine a blank screen no matter the images that try to push in. My breathing slows and sleep begins to take me away. “When it comes again I’ll be ready” was the last thing I thought to myself before I was awakened by the sun slipping in through the blinds.